| | Why can't we come with instruction manuals? It would be so much easier if I had some idea of what I am supposed to do with my life.
well, I thought I had a good idea of what I wanted to do with my life, and after listening to some of my mentors, I am so confused, now I don't know what I want to do, I don't want to end up selling my time away for a paycheck, and then again I don't want to end up keeping it all, and giving it away to what I should do and what I want to do, and dying, bankrupt and abandoned at 30, that's a little extreme, I know, but I am just so worried, I can't help it, I think too much, it is kinda pointless to worry about it to, hey, God's worrying about it too, or should I say solving it, so the real fear is where God is going to put me, and the fact that I have no clue where that is, but where He leads, I will follow, and that path ends at the foot of His throne, YAY!
friday: today was friday, St. Patrick's Day, and I forgot, haha, stupid me, and I hate being touched by anyone, unless I am hugging a friend, my throwing is getting much better, hoorah, coach showed us some new side step variations that work a lot better than the back step we were using, and I wasn't even wearing my lucky throwing shoes, haha, that reminds me, "we like to run around in circles, play in sand boxes, and lob heavy objects, I'm so excited for track, yay! I am so excited for next year, but also a little sad, friends are leaving, whether it be graduation or something else, certain programs are going to become less important in the eyes of the school, aagg, but on the bright side, there will be so much improvement, I have so much room for improvement, and I see that as a good thing, right now, I mean, it's only gonna get better, right, first F horn next year, woohoo!, that's not saying much, and my mom suggested that I start taking piano lessons again, like mary did in mornings, and I gotta get a real job at 16, no more lawnboy : ( that's kinda a mixed blessing, and classes will be harder, If only theology was a little deeper, the Bible does say more than just "love your neighbor" and "Jesus loves you; have a cookie" and other, simple "warm fuzzies", we need some "cold pricklies", their God is too safe, I'm so excited, and afraid, uncertainty has always been man's biggest fear, isn't it great to have an Omniscient and Omnipotent God?!!!!
Saturday: wow, super long day, so little brother woke me up playing my video games, and asked me where Daisy (the cat) was, so I opened the closet where I had put her the night before, and he picked her up, and there was a lot of high pitched noises when he did, you guessed it, she had kittens, five of them, so, if anybody wants a kitten in a couple of weeks, just say so, we can't take care of five cats, and lawnmowing season has started, I think it comes earlier every year, started during Spring break last year, and it's still winter this tear, but this is arkansas, so--, oh well, and then my sister and I went to see the most stupid movie EVER!! I'm ashamed to even say what it was, but you can probably guess, I feel much dumber now, aag, then i went to the phantom of the opera party, yay, mucho divertido, and while I was there alex, called, how ironic(??) that was a fun party, consisted of many funny picture poses,(hahaha) pool, some other games, and of course phantom of the opera! yay, pool is fun, and later that night I was told my family ran into the tobins, man, so many memories, so many memories, wow, that was a really long day
Sunday: not much has happened so far, just the usual, kittens are so cute, even though they look like rats, they won't in a couple weeks, anybody want a kitten??
edit:this week is boring and slow, I wasnt spring break to be here already!! |
